Friday, June 26, 2009

Rambling thoughts while on Vacation

As I was sitting outside yesterday watching my youngest two play in their grandparents backyard, I wondered to myself....

What would people say if I told them that I didn't want to be a mom anymore?

Not that I really BELIEVE this statement, but the thought slips in sometimes...

like when DH is on drill, AT, or off at some other training and I am alone with my kids and they are trying my patience.

like in the middle of the night when all I want to do is sleep and the kids are tag teaming on no sleep.

like when the kids keep disrespecting me or hubby. All I want to do is SWAK them a great one with some sense!

like when I am sick. A mom is never able to be sick.

like when my family points out all the things that I do wrong as a mom. This is an everyday occurrence. Really. It's aweful.

like when potty-training.

like when I have teenagers.

like when my depression gets the best of me.

Like I said, I love my kids more than my life, but a person can only take so much. The thing that is the worst is the daily hearing from family and friends of how I am screwing up and doing things wrong. I have yet to meet a perfect kid or a perfect parent.

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